I know it’s supposed to be 90 days, but I skipped the kickstart week and dover right into it. I’m not going to lie, when I saw this, my eyes watered a little…maybe a lot…nah, just a little.
What a crazy three months it has been. I learned so much and got so much stronger both physically and mentally. I met so many wonderful people through events, and also started working for someone that I can turn to for help when stuck. The first big thing is commitment. I made a promise to myself to see through this program and did just that. It had absolute priority and made sure I got to the DVDs every day. I often have trouble starting something but not finishing. Oddly enough with the gym or workouts it’s rarely the case. Even when I’m tired I just do it. I started to apply this to my writing as well. I made a commitment to write something every day, I devised a way to track it that, in turn made me stick to it. I guess it’s all about accountability for me, and goal setting. I realized that I’m a lot more likely to get busy if I’m working toward something tangible. I never gave myself enough credit, thought that I was just dicking around, but I came to realized what discipline I have. I had friends who wanted to get healthy, would tag along for a class or two but never really lasted, got lazy or other things took priority.
I discovered my own strength, I started doing things I never thought I would, my mental strength and confidence went through a complete 360 change. I had a really hard time with body dysmorphia. I saw myself differently in my head, I still saw myself as the fat kid even though I really wasn’t anymore. Taking the pictures every Sunday was pivotal in helping me snap out of it. I was now able too the changes, notice the definitions, the shrinking, it was impossible to deny that I am no longer chunky. My mindset changed. I went from “ugh I’m huge!’ to “oh wow, is that 1/6th of my 6pack?”. I wore a dress on multiple occasions and did not feel self conscious, I started dressing differently, trading in my baggy clothes from the early 1900s to more shape flattering, body hugging pieces. At some point I even voluntarily went shopping with Jacob and picked out a dress al by myself that I liked, and almost bought another. This may be trivial to most women but for me it’s huge.
This journey also introduced me to so many wonderful people. I met Ali vincent and started attending the events she organized in LA, met and kept in touch with people from that group, after almost 8 months I moved from way back to the front and middle in my Zumba class, and was welcomed in that family (sounds like a mob story). I kept taking more and more challenging classes, keeping track of my progress, getting inspired by fellow classmates and teachers, finding the ones that really work for me and motivate me through those 60 minutes of pure hell. These people are all, in part, responsible for my decision to become a personal trainer. Thanks to Jacob I also got a job working for a trainer who is really mentoring me. We make a great team, and while it’s not always easy, I’m really enjoying this journey. Just like the classes, my work constantly challenges me and pushes my limits. Certainly keeps it interesting.
I started this blog mostly as a tool for myself to keep track, but it became so much more. I kept getting really positive feedback, people wrote to me saying I got them to go back to the gym, I motivated them to work harder or to change their lives. I cannot even express how wonderful all those messages felt. It’s very humbling and it’s exactly the reason why I want to get certified. I want to help those who want to change, want to get healthier, feel better about themselves and just be the best they can possibly be. Countless friends message me every day, asking for dietary advice, workout routines or just a dose of motivation. I absolutely love it! Thank you all.
What makes me the happiest of all is the change I see in my family. It started with my sister, she would start moving more, watch what she eats a little closer, switch to healthier alternatives. Next up: mom. She went on a diet after she saw me in April. I wasn’t crazy about the one she picked since I’m not a fan of anything that deprives you of a crucial nutrient group, but she did start losing weight and considered going back to the gym, even hiring a trainer, til I discreetly pointed out that she is talking to one. So we agreed to train over skype once it gets cold. In the meantime my sis and her go swimming every weekday for a half hour or so. Love it! MY dad was by far the toughest to “convert”. For the most part it has to come from him. You can’t always tell him he needs to change up a few things because he is way unhealthy, even if he listens he hides it well and just blocks your attempts. So when this past Sunday he told me he started going to work half hour early to work out I was over the moon. He described his routine to me and sad he could use a few extra exercise suggestions, since he keeps doing the same things over and over again. Thus he became my first ever “client” I designed a full 5 day workout plan for.
I’m damn proud of myself. Proud for sticking with this, proud of everything I achieved, of what I learned, people I influenced and the changes I went through. What started as a simple weight loss program turned into somewhat of an awakening. While I’m not ready for a do over anytime soon, I fully intend to continue the growth it started me on.
“You know when transformation happens? Right now. It’s a present activity. Who is the new you? Show me the new you.” /J.M./